Bake-aholic

This morning was not what I wanted it to be. Having problems sleeping I found myself awake by eight. Not only was I awake but I had this very aware feeling of being all alone. Feeling alone is the worst, I didn't know what to do or who to call because I felt as though I had no one who I could bother. After having some various people text/call me for the same reason I decided today was going to suck so I might as well get on with it. Getting out of the shower, I realized I needed a game plan to keep my mind off being sad. So I chose to get reconnected with my love of baking. After whipping up two and a half dozen of the most beautiful oatmeal chocolate chip cookies I am feeling slightly better. Hopefully I can keep myself busy so I don't have to think about life. Also I hope I actually get more than five hours of sleep tonight. We'll see. Now some humorous pictures of the cookie making process to follow...

Mixing it up

Karlie's idea of helping...texting and asking when the cookies will be ready.

Then she got bored and made these "cookies" and insisted they were better than mine.

Even though mine looked like this. They were so beautiful and delicious! Yum!

It's hard to find the right words...

-to describe how you can actually be extremely mature at the age of eighteen. Being mature doesn't mean you never laugh, eat all your veggies, nor does it mean that you are capable of living on your own. Sure you can be on your own and be successful but you have to have someone whether it's a friend, boyfriend, spouse, cat, sister, mother... Everyone needs someone to confide in when life gets tough(knowing when to ask for help brings you a step closer to maturity). Because I am eighteen (here is where I also mention I look about 13 to most people... oh the joy!) I sometimes am doubted for my knowledge on certain topics, thought of as not an equal to adults, the list goes on and on. Age discrimination should never be so obvious but in modern times I am beginning to see it more often. NEWS FLASH to the older crowd- My life is not easy, I do make my own decisions, and I very rarely take the easy way out of anything. Think about that one. Instead of ignoring problems I face the vast majority of mine, which is very difficult. Ever notice how ignoring a bad thing is so much easier than actually opening up the can of worms and learning to cope? My life is full of making wise decisions, trying to get further ahead, prioritizing, a job, and school on top of it all. Congratulations Kylie, no matter what people think, you are an adult.

Seriously? Grow Up!

Being more mature than some people is extremely difficult. Especially if these people are a) older than you by several years or b) supposed to be your friend. Deciding how to handle situations is at times impossible. No matter how you react, it won't please everyone. Growing up before those around you sucks. You can't de-mature down to their level, nor do you want to. I am so ready to just be out of high school where bored little boys and girls have to upset life's balance for others. However, I am beginning to understand that some people will never grow up-they will always be about creating drama in the lives of others for their own self-centered amusement.

Finding Time

Finally finding time and enough interesting information to write here I am. In recent days I have been busy with a literary analysis and other things. The reason for the excitement in this blog is we finally heard back from SISPA and I got a first place award for yearbook feature writing! Heck yes! That means I'm actually good! I was so excited and am looking forward to framing it and adding it to my wall of awards. More to follow later this week!