And the Emmy Goes to...

Pretending to be someone you aren't is easy. Pretending everything in your life is fine when it's total crap is far from easy. Hiding your true emotions from even your best friends is a challenge that only the best actors accept. When life gets rough is when this talent of mine comes in hardy. Not wanting my sadness to bring those around me down, I throw on my "everything is great" face, and go about my life. This may not be the best decision to make but I sometimes feel it's necessary. I can only act for so many hours a day, the hours when I'm home alone or with family pass by slowly, with little excitement, and I feel as though I'm walking on broken glass. I have to keep on alert in order to not break my "perfect" character. The slightest negative comment from anyone turns me from tough to weak. In terms of all is fine and dandy? Oh yes, that is my life.